Diary Entry #4

I awake.
Darkness fulfills the room & the contour of the objects around.  My aura seemed to be radiating, but then I discover that my body is locked into place.
I don't fight for freedom. I feel confined and yet comforted.
I hear a hard beating against my ear. The beats makeup a special song that's meant for me only at that very moment.
I come to realize there's a smile on my face. I look up to see you with your eyes closed shut expressing your deep slumber. Your arm around me tells me that you want to make sure I feel protected and secured. And the fact that you're even with me shows you care.
As I lay my head back down, my finger traces the dents and curves of your arm. The appearance of your veins, my eyes begin to follow. 
My mind begins to wonder about how wonderful you are: God-fearing and family/friend oriented. About how you want to see everyone succeed and if you're well-stabled you make sure that you take everyone you love along.
I see where life is taking you...taking me...and the possibility that our lives intertwined as it did. Ups and downs: plenty. Any doubts: not at all.
All the memories we've had overflow my mind. All the jokes of a future together and the plans we have...but I start to think we are meaning what we say, but we just joke to amuse the other. Only time will tell.
I take a deep breath that's mixed with your one-of-a-kind essence and I feel at peace and linger in the moment...until the light of the morning sun hits my eyes.
I awaken to find out you were just a beautiful nightmare and never there and I lay wondering will I ever see you again.

-Love In Peace Out

Diary Entry #3

Love...

Love is...

Love is war peace,

Unity.

Love is respect,

Lying Honesty.

Love is the combination of pleasure, fear, excitement, passion, & completion.

Love...

Love is...

Safe.

Security.
Love is free to be you stripped & raw.
Love is to be able to say "Here I am" & never look back.
Love is...
looking into their eyes & seeing yourself...past, present, & future.
(from my mind to your eyes)

-Love In Peace Out

New Year, New Love. . .Diary Entry #2

Laying down in the bed with the earphones connected to the iPod & this song came on.  This is one of my favorite songs off of Christina Aguilera's Stripped CD.  Being 4 years single, you sort of miss the feeling of being some one's significant other & all the sweet, personal intimacy that happens between two people that care for each other when no one is around.  Especially those wake up smiles & kisses meant especially for the cheek or forehead. But you know what? Those 4 years gave me time to learn myself & God more be comfortable before I share myself with anyone else. 2011 is a new born baby & there is AMPLE amount of time to weight out my options & see who I'll actually be in a relationship with. Who knows? Hopefully I can relate this song to him when he finds me.

             "Stripped of all make up. No need for fancy clothes. No cover ups. No push ups. With him I don't have to put on a show. He loves every freckle, every curve, every inch of my skin fulfilling me entirely & taking all of me in. He's real. He's honesty. He's loving me for me."

-Love In Peace Out

Ain't No Bugs, Mugs!

Okay so you know when you have those random moments where something pops in your head and makes you laugh? I just had one of those when I was in the shower washing my hair (yeah, I had it there and don't think about me in the shower..Its disturbing). This is what came in my head. Remember this?

LOL cute huh? Now you know good and well you remember this! Well, I started humming it once,....then agian...then I found myself on repeat. As a result of that repeat, this came into the mix..

MADE YOU LAUGH! lol Welcome to my mind. Now you can't say I didn't at least make you smile...=) Anyways, thought I'd share!

-Love In Peace Out