Diary Entry #4

I awake.
Darkness fulfills the room & the contour of the objects around.  My aura seemed to be radiating, but then I discover that my body is locked into place.
I don't fight for freedom. I feel confined and yet comforted.
I hear a hard beating against my ear. The beats makeup a special song that's meant for me only at that very moment.
I come to realize there's a smile on my face. I look up to see you with your eyes closed shut expressing your deep slumber. Your arm around me tells me that you want to make sure I feel protected and secured. And the fact that you're even with me shows you care.
As I lay my head back down, my finger traces the dents and curves of your arm. The appearance of your veins, my eyes begin to follow. 
My mind begins to wonder about how wonderful you are: God-fearing and family/friend oriented. About how you want to see everyone succeed and if you're well-stabled you make sure that you take everyone you love along.
I see where life is taking you...taking me...and the possibility that our lives intertwined as it did. Ups and downs: plenty. Any doubts: not at all.
All the memories we've had overflow my mind. All the jokes of a future together and the plans we have...but I start to think we are meaning what we say, but we just joke to amuse the other. Only time will tell.
I take a deep breath that's mixed with your one-of-a-kind essence and I feel at peace and linger in the moment...until the light of the morning sun hits my eyes.
I awaken to find out you were just a beautiful nightmare and never there and I lay wondering will I ever see you again.

-Love In Peace Out

Diary Entry #3

Love...

Love is...

Love is war peace,

Unity.

Love is respect,

Lying Honesty.

Love is the combination of pleasure, fear, excitement, passion, & completion.

Love...

Love is...

Safe.

Security.
Love is free to be you stripped & raw.
Love is to be able to say "Here I am" & never look back.
Love is...
looking into their eyes & seeing yourself...past, present, & future.
(from my mind to your eyes)

-Love In Peace Out

New Year, New Love. . .Diary Entry #2

Laying down in the bed with the earphones connected to the iPod & this song came on.  This is one of my favorite songs off of Christina Aguilera's Stripped CD.  Being 4 years single, you sort of miss the feeling of being some one's significant other & all the sweet, personal intimacy that happens between two people that care for each other when no one is around.  Especially those wake up smiles & kisses meant especially for the cheek or forehead. But you know what? Those 4 years gave me time to learn myself & God more be comfortable before I share myself with anyone else. 2011 is a new born baby & there is AMPLE amount of time to weight out my options & see who I'll actually be in a relationship with. Who knows? Hopefully I can relate this song to him when he finds me.

             "Stripped of all make up. No need for fancy clothes. No cover ups. No push ups. With him I don't have to put on a show. He loves every freckle, every curve, every inch of my skin fulfilling me entirely & taking all of me in. He's real. He's honesty. He's loving me for me."

-Love In Peace Out

As I Am..Diary Entry #1

Sooo...lately I've been more down than up about school & I don't know what it is about the end of a semester, but it always makes me a little lazier than when I started. iSleep, iEat, iProcrastinate, iStress more than ever, & iAM not my normal ray of sunshine. This is usually the time I have to remind myself why I am in school & what my purpose & dreams are. Even remembering that I am not the only one benefiting from my future achievements. My insane, pessimistic, weird family [seen below & excuse the picture...its the best one we took] is as well, being they motivate me to want to do ever so much more for them than I will do for myself. For you to get to know me personally & better, I'll start off my telling you my dream I'm striving for now.

• To get my degree in Communications with focus on Radio/Tv/Film
• That goal is mainly focused on radio
• With that I'm moving the hell out of Alabama. My dreams are TOO big to be staying here.
• Move to be a radio personality in either Miami or Los Angeles.
• (iLOVE being at the soundboard and creating a radio show. Its like electricity flowing through my veins & gives me one of the best feelings I've ever experienced in life)

Then the rest of my dreams is solely based on family, but that's another entry. Thinking about my passion & what iWant to do with it & go beyond what I was meant to be & do in life gives me the mental vitamins iNeed to make it through this crazy school. When you're not feeling your best in school, what part of your dream gives you the sensation that just awakes you?

P.S. Excuse my radio pictures. Rainy day in the lab. =)
-Love In Peace Out